Melancholy of Sickness

Blushings on my cheeks, a little bit pale forehead and watery glassy eyes…
Sickness improves my melancholiness and appearance…
There’s something about being sick and being melancholy. It’s not the sympathy from others. It’s not the sympathy from yourself either. It’s more of a mechanical switch, which has been turned on. Clearer thoughts go through my mind with my sickness and my melancholy. Resulting in tendency to look inwards rather than outwards. How healthy is being melancholy?!?!? I think it's ok to be in ‘romantic agony’.

‘Gradually, the tubercular look, which symbolized an appealing vulnerability, a superior sensitivity, became more and more the ideal look for women – while great men of the mid and late nineteenth century grew fat, founded industrial empires, wrote hundreds of novels, made wars, and plundered continents.’ – Illness as Metaphor, Susan Sontag –

Men of these days being FAT??? They should sign up for a gym membership quickly before other people find out.